...because either nothing else works or anything that could work doesn't fit into the budget. (Hm. Does that count as not working?) I have a problem or two (or more). Sometimes these problems build upon one another until something breaks down. I feel like I might be reaching that point.
So, in an effort to avoid a nervous breakdown (or worse), I'm going to construct an online diary of sorts. I'm going to set a few rules for myself.
1. Complete Honesty. *
2. Don't use this as a way to procrastinate.
3. Must write in this if still awake after 2 A.M.**
4. Don't use this as a self-hate session.
5. Post at least once a month.
6. Don't avoid topics just because they are uncomfortable.
*Everything needs an asterick, especially this rule. The exception to Rule 1 is "omit identifying information." I'm not allowed to reveal such things as real addresses and names.
**Double asterick. You know things are getting serious down hee-yah. (snort) The exception to this rule is when I'm working on school related material.
My mission: I hope that by sharing my thoughts and feelings will improve my quality of life. I suffer from bouts of extreme apathy (depression?) and insomnia. I'm tired of not getting assignments complete on time. I'm tired of withdrawing from my loved ones and wishing I am the only one in the world. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only person in the world. I'm stuck in my head and I can't find my way out. But maybe...even if this isn't my way out, this might open my eyes wide enough to find the path.